yes.
my handphone got confiscated,again.
aiyoo.
im so used to it la.
because why?
my bill costs a BOMB! ;D
so meanwhile, anything, just call my house number?
or whatever means to talk to me.

today is average.
im tiredd.
idk why.
its all-of-a-sudden la.
haiyaaa.
padahal today dont have alot of things happening.
=.=
apa sahaja hanna!
but there's PD todayy.
and its th last.
yes LAST.
saddening kaaaaaaaaaan?
i do enjoy this enrichment.
more CANDICE pleaaaaaaaaaase! ;D

im settling with all those pissing off stuffs.
well, some what or some sort.
im trying to accept other people's flaws.
yes.
at least im trying k?
anddd.
i saw the person just now.
not th one i am pissed at currently.
but.
haiyaaaa.
save th explainations.
SOFIA know it.
and she;s so sweet to straight away come to me.
before i start to tear.
omggg.
why th heck am i so emotional?
so yea.
thnks girl.
anddd ily.

ohh yea.
did i tell you i got a new laughing companion.
yes? no?
okehh no.
haaah.
MIRAH la! ;D
day in day out without fail make me laugh onee!
then she laugh cute!
like got squeaks and squels, macam tikus! ;D
ahahahahahah! xD
and im laughingg as im typing this.
ily,la girl
andd i got a touchy-touchy partner too!
SOFIA AINI.
okehh that was her LOVE language.
and now i made it a point everydayy to touch her.
oh and say i LOVE her.
haaaah! ;D
oh and ms. tehteh! ;D
who keeps on shouting "EVEREST" and "RIVER NILE" andd "tehteh uhh!"
haaaaah!
yes that Jia Hui laaa.
know nothing but tehteh.
okeh no.
but most of th time its her voice saying 'tehteh uhh'
ahahahah! ;D

my sister told me her story in school today.
SYARIFAH SYAZANATUL AISYAH
jatuhhhh longkaaaaaaang!
and she's proud of it!
i mean she can write at her PM uhh.
NOT clumsy turns CLUMSY.
haaaah!
must be infected by me la.
haaaah!
and she really tell me th whole thing
with action sekali!
euu should see her face la!
when she tell me about hte part she fell, how her expression look like
it was HORRIFYING!
okehh not literally.
but it made me ROFLMAO! xD xD xD
and i, still laughing to myself.
my sister really made me go crazy.
in a way that always make me laugh! ;D
ily,adek!
i feel like kissing her cheeks la!
but everytime i kiss, she go slap my face.
=.=
haiyaaaaaaaaa!
then i tease her about boys kissing her.
confirm will get bruised one! ;D

and today, before PD i met SHAFIQ. ;D
haaaaah!
we talk and laugh and stuff.
we turn 1 year 3 months today. :D
cepaaaaaaaaaat nyaaaaaaaaa!
haaaaah!
you know his handwriting BIG, i jealous.
because i cant write BIG as it will look horrible like shit. :D
so i taught him how to write like HANNA. ;D
ahahahah!
i toldd him to write smallsmall!
like my handwriting on my diary.
then th way he write so super CUTE la! ;D
like budaaak baru belajar menulis.
some looks like mine then when i re-read right
i confuse which one i write which one he write. -.-
hanna..hanna! ;D
and all th time he writing, i keep on laughinggg like sewel nyonyaaa! ;D
haaaah!
" keep on writing like that, and you'll be writing like a PRO!" :D
merepek kaaaan?
hah!
i know la! ;D

is this post longgggg?
oh yes its longg! ;D
and i realised i have been posting everyday for th past 3 days.
am i a good girl or what?

you and your wacky inventions,
whimp!

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
how great!
my comp is super laggy today.
or is it friendster?
heckkkk! ;D

posting agaaain.
nak tau asal?
sebabb aku bored sekali.
hehhh.
i think im gonna call SHAFIQ to beat th boredom.
tapi itu nanti la.

in school todayyy,
nothing muchh happen.
only talk&gossip alot with Mirahhh love.
hehhh.
we talk and laugh banyakbanyak sekali kannn?
ily! ;D
lessons was kindda slack?

oh yaaa.
we made Scotch Egg for Food & Nutrition today.
haaah.
and th way i said it sounded more like
'SCOTCH TAPE' rather thaan 'SCOTCH EGG' ;D
bahahahahah! xD
i just tasted it.
its not baddddd.

i might not be giving teechers anything for teeechers day(?)
hahhh!
thats very strange for me.
because every year i always have something to give.
since now my pocket got one big gigantic hole.
haaah.
i dont want la, make it bigger.

and yes!
im getting my tees tmr.
heeeeh.
mum is so gonna be noisy.
because i keep on buying tees and never wear them.
not never.
but seldom wear them.
=.=
haaaah.
whatever.
i am making my wardrobe looks marvelous!

there PD Enrichment today.
ya.
th one with Candice.
idk why but i love girl sessions with her.
its nice(?)
and yes i feel comfortable.
yes,i did teared when she actually asked us
"What is LOVE to you?"
andd.
"How do you feel LOVED"
actually i got alot to say.
but i restrict my opinions la.
my darlinggg cried.
i cried too.
somehow when SOFIA said th how she feels loved.
i tear-ed.
because it touched me(?)
not literally but it makes me tear.
my dear girl,
dont cry k?
ily and will always be there for you when you need me so damn much.
ily|ily|ily|ily|ily! ;D
weROCK k?
weROCK. \m/

hehhh!
i took alot pictures in class today.
with girls in my class during Food& Nutrition.
no all la.
but those in my group.
haaah.
funny gila la. ;D
post it some other time la.
hehh.
pictures uploading from handphone to computer
takes forever.
haaaaah. ;D

im still looking forward for friday.
i just dunoe why.
i just want to meet my SUPER girls.
hehhh! ;D

okeh,time for me to call SHAFIQ!
hehhh!
im done hereee.
byeeee.

again im saying.
TRY THIS AGAIN : JUST BE YOU.
not be someone else to fit in or be cool.
i dunnoe what to say la.
tsk.
no life suckers just get on my nerves.

TAG REPLIES!

14 August

IASFiiOna: hehhh! duhh! its your time of th year whaaat! ;D

15 August

nabeelah: ahahahah! ;D cuteass tagged! ily.
irah : haaaah! ;D thnks for visiting. ily too! girlfriends rock la.

16 August

IASFiiOna to: jealous kepe?
aenn: ahahah! cool la. apaa sajaaaa ;D

17 August

jiaHui: RELINK-ed! ;D
06.YVONNE! :] : RELINK-ed! ;D
sherryberryblueberry: k fine! 1045am k? haiyaaaa! big deal! ;D
Lynn: yeaaaaaa! piggggg! ;D
boi dazer . : oi. hello! ;D hehh! idk yooo!

18 August

nadhilah: yay! im LOVED! ;D i love anakk AZMAN! ;D
nabeelah: why takut? why oh why? D: aiyerr. i wont run la for sure! i photogenic so make picture nice. chehh! perasaaan! ;D

19 August

MiruL : sell laaa! ;D i dont want! i want first hand guitar! hmph! ;D

20&22 August

nabeelah&MiruL&IASFiiOna! haaaah! macam interaction time seyy! ;D biasa-biasakan selalu!

22 August

IASFiiOna: Taufiq mana pulak ni? sayy whaaaat? ;D
nabeelah: yes, your namee banyakk sekali! bebualpat tagboard FUHH! bual in person, segan silu! ;D hehhh!
cute kapaaa!
Amandapyh: YES! MRS NEO IS NONSENSE KUKUBIRD! ;D haaaaaah!

24 August

IASFiiOna: UPDATE in progress! (: got meh you called out my nameee? when siaaa?

25 August
nabeelah: hehhh! anti MRS NEO nampakk! ;D

tags replied! ;D
like finally im updatinggg!



cockroaches makes me go crazy la bodo!
just now i step on one with my bare feet!
its so ewww la please.
okeh enough about thaaat.
so long since i last update.
been busy with alot of stuffs.
i really mean alot la please.
especially kayakking.
i kill my sundays to go for that and return home at about 9.
but its nice.
because i get to walk home with SHAFIQ. ;D
hehhh.
i suddenly feel super hyper.
tsk.
all of a sudden.

oh.
i hate this feeling la.
i feel like want to make a poop everytime after i eat.
but, i just wont come out.
okeh thats random.
but seriously.
this feeling makes me sickk. D:

ohh!
im so looking forward to friday! ;D
its teachers' day celebration.
but i have yet plan what to give teeechers.
plan on baking something with miss SOFIA AINI.
but idk la.
we've been very busy this few days.
=.=
i really mean very busyyy.
and stupid la.
she got recess duty this week which is equals to,
no time to girl talk and joke ard.
but lucky got amirahhh! ;D
where was i ?
oh ya.
fridayyy.
i get to meet my SUPER GIRLS!
amani&fazleen!
here i comeeeeee~
haaaaaah!
and th rest of my kawans zaman kental duluuu . . .
hehhh!
those times. . .
i do miss it la actually. T.T

i wrote something about MRS NEO and show it to SOFIA AINI everytime
i got nothing o do.
hahhh!
i dont want to tell what is it anw. ;D
go figure!

i freakingg-ly need cash.
cha-chinggg cha-chinggg into my pocket!
i owe teachers alot of moolahh la oi.
=.=
and im short of them because i spend them on unnecessary stuffs.
like FOOD & CLOTHES.
no.
food and clothes ARE necessary.
so its a must buy. (:
hehhhh.

this post is random aint it?
yes, veryy random.
but i still care to blog.
because it looks dead and idk why almost everyone
wants me to update.
so i update la.

i suddenly have th urge to back out from th Kayaking Expedition.
its so pressurising laa when you;re out at sea and you need to reach a destination
at a specific time.
one part of me wants to go baddddly.
another just plain lazy.
yes PLAIN LAZY.
and the very next day after th Kayaking Expedition is alrd fasting month.
=.=
greaaaaaat!
iLah backed out.
then me lehh?
even SOFIA AINI is thinking of backing out.
ugh~
this is so sending me to a dilemma state.
best ka paaa!
fine, i think i'll go for th experience.
hough i have to kill another weekend to be out at sea
rather than me with my family
yes duhh i feel badd.
yes duhh i miss them.
i mean.
i dont even think im ready for th expedition.
we only have like 3 or is it 4 water training(?)
haiyaaaaa.
two of it we experience storm.
and god knows how hard it is to paddle against storm
im still ponderinggggg. . .

SHAFIQ is having PRELIMS lately.
and its kindda hard to meet him.
sadded kaaaaaan?
D:
at least he have been walking me home almost everyday. ;D
walk home onlyyy!
JYJY for PRELIMS! ;D
hehhhhh!
i wished him goodLUCK for idk how many times alrd oi.
hahhhh!
andd.
tmr and th day after tmr and friday.
idk if i can even meet him.
Saturday&Sunday is th expedition.
thennn monday holiday&fasting alrd.
mannn.
how come its harddd to meet him. D:

this post is longgg.
haaaah!
okeh i think i'll end here la.
byeeeee~!

why try to be someone you're not?
try this: JUST BE YOURSELF.

i realise my blogg is suffering of lack-of-pictures.
haaaaah!(:
i felt like a TOTAL pigg today!
i slept all th way to 10:45pm.
DUH!
im like SUPER DUPER tiredd of th floorball competition.
yeaaa thaaat!
i only get to play one game.
ONE pathetic game and lost.
=.=!!!
haaaah!
whatever la ehh.
im so used to being reserved! ;D
i sms-ed SHAFIQ and NADHILAH
while seeing them all playyy.
i was turned back to a happy girl when i
get to meet with SHAFIQ after th whole thing.
he was sweet to send me home from JP(:
oh!
the thing was at Ang Mo Kio by the way.
=.=
went to buy stuff fr someone with Sofia&her baby.
i walked with mine!(:
hahhhh!
at least im not xtraa kaaan? (:
IM A HAPPY GIRL!
time trip backk home! ;D
hehhh.
but i was tireddddddd.
super tiredddd!
went home,dinner-ed.
then FINALLY for once get to chaat with my girlfriends.
iRAH,iLAH,SOFIA ;D
offline-ed and i went on th phone with SHAFIQ (:
haaaah!
talk sekejap ajaa.
sebabb i tertidurrr.(:
well.
as for today.
i did nothing.
xcept watch Olympics.
hahhhhh!
and HINDUSTAN that mede me cryyyyyyy! D: D: D:
im doneee! (:

im dont care if you're popular.
so what if you're popular.
as a matter of fact, i dont really care.
just dont forget who your friends are.

TAG REPLIES! :D :D

4 August

nabeelah: hehhh(: darlinggg, i've cheered up. have yoo? yoo must! :D

6 August

IASFiiOna: haaaah. i know you'll always be there. though at times euu SUPER BUSY! ily,too! :D

9 August


nabeelah: D: saddd kaaan? yoo dont sadsad la. I LOVE YOOOOOOO TOO! ily|ily|ily|ily! :D

10 August

IASFiiOna: DUH its nice! form hanna blog mahhh! :D
Mirah : you're right. people change(: yeaps. i can always count on you. ily,darlinggg.
♡Sherra : im LOVED :D I LOVE YOU TOO,hunneh! (:

11 August

IASFiiOna: yes.yes.yes. i know. 3 times siol. nak tau asal? euu pressed ENTER 3 times? (:

12 August

nabeelah: haah! thnks darlinggg(: ily,

13 August

IASFiiOna: yay GREEN! (: cheh! yes i know you always CARE!

PHEW!
FINALLY! (:
whoaaa.
i realise only SOFIA AINI, nabeelah frequent siol! (:
Mirah&Sherra too!(:
LAWL! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOFIA AINI! (:
ily! <3

omgggg!
im such a good girl kaaan?
hehhhh!
anw.
today SUPER tiring like WTH?! (:
i have to get up of beddd at 5?
then i hit the snooze button 2 times.
so i wake up at 5:18! (:
rushed to get readyy.
off to schooool~
damn, the bus is lateee.
then when i board th bus,
i gave th driver a stare the "im so gonna be late" look.
apa sajaaaa.
overall,
th 9th ASEAN TENNIS CHAMPIONSHIP Opening Ceremony
at Jurong Country Club was SUPER DUPER BEST! (:
haaaaaaaaaah!
i was th placard holder.
for PHILIPPINES!
just nice right?
i was hoping to hold th PHILIPPINES placard,
sekali get to holddd sey! (:
apa tak happy!(:
the participants super friendly la.
then theres this Philippine girl, quite cuteeee the first thing she
did when she reach the place kan is take picture with me
holding th placardd(:
haaaaah!
then suddenly i got tired of smiling because the coaches and participants
from Philippines all eager to take picture.
so i smile here,smile there. (:
th boys super FRIENDLY! (:
so was th girls. :D
i realisedd something about th boys.
haaah!
but i heck careeee! :D
then did some duty at tennis court with Sofia and Wan Kee.
abehh kan we return back to th place kaaan, eat some sandwiches ,curry puff,carrot cake and spring rolls.
siol uhh!
i eat alotalotalot seyy! (:
return back school.
change.
have recess.
actually it was recess first then changee.
but whatever.(:
thennnn return back to class.
the LiVE lesson, i slept through out!
IM SUPER TIRED.
i trust me when i say, i sleep really soundly in class.
it feels like as if im on my beddd sleeping like a pigg.
but Mrs Neo interrupted my sleep when she went to th back and talk LOUD! (:
but heck.
i didnt pay much attention for Math.
then Mrs Neo kaaaan.
she say i never handd in alot homework.
padahal i only owe her one!
HAIYAAAA! =.=
slack-ed for a while in school.
thought i want wait for SHAFIQ.
tapi he finish his math exams late.
so i went home and sleep like a pig who never sleep beforeeee!
hehhhhh.
i feel so light after that! (:
then chateed with Nadhilah, darlinggg on th phone for like an hour(?)
yaaa.
we somehow talk ALOT for th first time!
haaah.
i LOVE her la.
okehhh i want gooo and watch tv with mum(?)
haaaaah!
since when i care? (:
okehhh.
byeeeeeeee!

hah. im so over you and your PROMISES and SWEAR,stupid!

tag reply soon aites?
i guess in okehhh now.(:
well abit.
but who cares right?
anw.
yeaa.
changed blog skin!(:
kindda sickk of jonas brothers.
so yea.
i change(:
i find this quite simple?
hehhhhh!

okehh. im done for now(:
YAY!
iROCK.
idk why im so happy todayyy!

its like old times,aint it.
yes i feel the love now.
and this time its true, i swear.
but still.
i feel so crushed.
yes its because of that incident.
im like chased by shadows.
but actually theres nothing i should be afraid of.
maybe there is.
but i just dont know.

at times i do feel happiness.
and at times.
i feel lonely and all by myself.
its like the worlds' against me.
but no.
i mean the answer is uncertain.
i just dont know whats with me.
im all messed up.
i hate.
i carry this heart full of hatred and fear.
after thaaat incident.

and yes.
i do feel betrayed.
by euu.
and i HATE you for that.
yes HATE.
and now euu're trying to get people in your league
because euu know this'll happen.
go on.
get as many people in your league as you want.
i dont give a damn.
because i have no right to stop you from making friends.
i mean.
im a nobody to you already right?
i seriously regret la telling you my secrets.
i mean.
HOW COULD YOU?
anw.
i dont feel lost without you now.
and i know you're just doing the right thing.
surprisingly,
i respect you for the truth.
haaaah.
YOU&ME are so long OVER,friend.

and you.
could you just like BACK OFF?
it has nothing gotta do with you.


now.
i cant stop this tears from flowing every night.
i want back history
when everything use to be perfect.
because i hate it now.
i hate my life now.
alot.
alot.
alot.




girl,
i know you're pissed.
chill okehh?
if you need a listening ear,im here.
i mean eventhough we're not as close as what we use to be.
but i will still listen to you.
you know who you are.



can i get a new life,please?
yes, i want revenge.
revenge to all those people who make me this way.
not now,not later.
maybe never?
but i will have vengeance.

i feel so messed up now.
i have to make a stand.
but either way, i have people hating me.
and god knows how much i hate people hating me.
well, maybe i have to.
maybe its the only way out.
is this second thoughts.
or have i chosen the right path for happiness.
im clueless.
im confuse.
maybe at times i care too much about other feelings.
and maybe sometimes.
i care too much about mine.
can i just do something that will make me and another party happy?
why is it always biased?
why is it that.
whenver i turn to.
or whatever i read,see or hear etc.
it has always got something to do with what im experiencing how.
i terasaaa.
CAN I JUST LET GO?


girl,
the few minutes with you meant alot.
yes, i pour everything on you.
and im glad you understand.
thnks alot.
i love you, and i will always be there standing next to you against all odds.
haaah.
its nice you know,
both of us are against th same person.
haaaah.
yes.
i will alwaysLOVE you girlfriend(:


girlfriend.
sitting with you gerek.
and i realised, you are indeed a good friend.
and good l
kita bestfriend k?
I LOVE YOU girlfriend.


i cnt believe this happens.
i dunnoe what is wrong with me nowadays.
i feel weird(?)
i feel lost.
i feel crushed.
why does all this have to happen this fast.
though i know its th only way
but it could be something else.

dont you realise your words are like daggers that pierce through my heart.
i know i deserve it.
but why to that extent?
at the end of it all.
i was expecting something.
maybe a sorry,
or a word or two to lift my spirits back up.
but you didnt.
instead you just walk away.
again,i deserve it.
but why to that extend.
its torturing me.
yes your words really pierce through my heart.
straight to my soul.
i can still feel th impact.
yes.
it hurts so much.
to know a gazillion people are going against me.
yes i know
i deserve it.
i mean.
i seriously am acting like a bitch.
but why cant i make my own stand
and stand up for my own rights.
i mean everyone has rights.
kaan?
i mean seriously.
come to think of it.
eventhough i hurt people so much.
i lie,yes i lie.
i bitch ard.
but not to th extend to all go against me.
i dont like this feeling.
how i wish it could just go awaaaaay.
i feel like killing myself.
like ending life.
so i wont feel such pain.
maybe you;re wondering why should i take this so seriously.
just let go.
but it aint easy.
i have to one to turn to now.
because you said it meant to be a secret.
so yes i keep it.
but its killing me inside.
SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME, for goodness sake.
ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?

im disappointed in yoo.
yes.
you influence me.
but you aint confessing.
im seriously very issapointed.

im sorry.
but i have to do it.
i know both are at fault.
im sorry
but i have to do it.
i know its like betraying.
im sorry.
i shouldnt have told it to anyone.
but this time.
i have no way out.
im sorry to put you in that state.
i know im cruel.
i know im a bitch.
im sorry.
i dont consider your feelings.
im superduper sorry.

how could you.
i trusted you.
and you did that?
just to defend yourself.
i hate you.
yes.
i hate you.
and seriously.
i dont expect you to do such a thing to me.
after all...
ugh~!
i mean
HOW COULD YOU!
i trusted you
and you betray me.
I HATE YOU.
I HATE YOU.
I HATE YOU.

sis,
you are the best.
i could count on you.
you;re not only a pain in the arse.
but you, are a great listener.
who always listen
and have cute reactions.
I LOVE YOU SISTER.
i will always be there for you when you need me.
dont worry,sister.
i will keep my words.
i will always remember every little secret we shared.
I LOVE YOU LITTLE SISTER.
you are the best!(:



im down.
i want runaway.
i want get lost.
i want to be free.
i want to be someone else.
i want to change.
i want support.
i want love.
i want history back.
i want the old Syarifah Azrinatul Nurulhanna back.

LEAVE ME ALONE.

YAY! tag replies! (:

30 July

aenn: watch la(: youtube adaaa(: tapi in parts. go watch,it made me cryyyyy.
IASFiiOna: whaaat silent treatment? bilaaaaaaaaaaang! (: your comp hates you due to your sister HABBO-ing most of th time! :P

2 August

Mirah: omggg! i love you more each day lorh!(: you make me laugh like sewel nyonyaaa!
IASFiiOna: aiyooo! nothing happen! (:
nabeelah: you know why got so many Powerpuff girls stickers? because got my sister and my art wrok time kita kecil-kecil,so i being a smart ass go tampal all the stickers lorh! go tryyy laa!(:
nice sekali tauuu!(: they will always smile seeing you looking at th mirroro no matter how =.= you look(:

3 August
IASFiiOna: got laa,remember last friday? from then on i cnt stop (you know what i did right?) :D

recently, i watched another indonesian movie.
Selamanya was SADDDD! D:
i cried laaa.
then th next was Kangen.(:
it saddd too.
and yes, i cried again!
ahahah!

any way.
for get about th last post okeh?
im learning to live with it.
well, i have to right?
if not i'll go nowhere.
but now,
seriously.
ugh~!
nevermind.
forget it.
let it be.


i need a hug.
i need a listening ear.
i just need some one to be there for me.
i mean it all feels so wrong la.
what the heck did i do to you to deserve this kind of treatment?
want to give me a taste of my own medicine?
haaah.
think again.
i think youre at it again.
a few weeks ago,
i had this HUGE ego.
that even you hate it.
you dont even dare give me attitude.
but now when this HUGE ego is no more.
da start la.
you did it again.
you think what?
i funfair?
you only go timid when i have a huge ego.
and start giving me attitude when i change back.
isnt it called stepping on my head(?)
euu think i give a damn.
and will be thaat stupid to be th one saying sorry.
hah.
dream on la.
whos th one suppose to say sorry?
my problem uh if i want to talk about it or not.
why do you have to care?
i mean.
who are you to care?
just one question.
why am i getting th cold shoulder now?
maybe im that stupid,to shed tears for you everyday.
yea.
i am stupid.
whatever la.

the few moment with you was great
it all brought us back to how we used to be,
last time.
i do miss it.
but still life has to go on.
i know euu still keep pieces of me with you.
i dont mind.
but im sorry, you're just to perfect.
the few moment with you meant alot.
finally,i get to tell you my problems.
and you.
just sits there and listen.
i know euu are speechless.
but lending a listening ear
is enough for me.
ily,kawaan.

something in me just now triggered me to tears.
its the song, i was the song.
it brought me to memories.
that i once love and cherish it so much.
god knows how hard i've been holding back my tears.
god knows how hard i'm running away from reality.
god knows how hard it hurts inside.
i just let it out.
i cant stand it anymore.
im no attracting audiences to the drama of my life.
but i just cant take it,
please do understand.
guys,thnks for the jokes and attempt to make me laugh
and stop the tears.
especially Sofia! and Wan Kee! for stroking me comforting and
allowing me to cry on your back.
i love you girls.
and the rest who just made me laugh.
namely
Wei Heng!Amirul! Nazri! Jeremy! Khairul!
yes at least your tactics made me laugh.
thnks alot k?

haaah.
its starting again.
i will end here.
im okeh,dont worry.